personal update

[energongoodie]

Condolences Bols chum.

[wayne williams]

so sorry for your loss try to remember your not alone .

[60-second swordsman]

Awfully sorry to hear this. For what it's worth to you, the BoLS crowd seems to know you and offer their support which is very valuable, even if it might not make a difference right now.

One day at the time, dude.

[Deadlift]

I'm really very sorry for your loss, I remember from your previous posts that you have had a really rough time of it.
I sincerely hope things get better for you and the rest of 2014 only gets better. The BoLs community really is a supportive one and even though we yank each other's chain from time to time it's great we can share with each other.
Onwards and upwards my friend

[gwensdad]

Thank you. Everyone.

[Kaptain Badrukk]

*Trans-pacific slightly awkward man-hug*
I'm rubbish at words with this stuff.

[scadugenga]

I'm very sorry to hear that, Gwensdad.

I lost my mom back in college. It's not something you deal with easily. My best suggestion is this: take some time each day to actively find something beautiful in the world around you. See it, and consciously feel a bit of joy. It won't make things magically better, but it will serve to keep you from going in a downward spiral. Those are hard to stop once you're on the ride.

The stupid *** adage about time is unfortunately true. The hurt doesn't go away, it just gets a bit easier to deal with moving forward. The first couple years of holidays are not going to be fun. You'll need to try harder on those days to find something joyous or beautiful. If you drink, or otherwise engage in mood/mind altering behavior--I recommend taking a hiatus for awhile. For me, I was in college, so going out with friends for drinks & dancing was fairly common. I didn't touch a drop for about 6 months. Because it was all too tempting to start, and then not stop.

Peace, and don't hesitate to reach out to people, local or online.

-Scad